Rambling on in confusion of love.

Some times I just don't feel like I deserve Janine. I guess I don't deserve her and its only by Gods grace that she is a part of my life to begin with. That's some thing that I need to remember. I really need to stop taking Janine for granted and I need to show her love the way God shows me.
Some times I feel like Janine is mad at me over nothing, but its always a deeper issue than what the problem seems to me like it is. I'm so far from perfect and I wish I never made her mad or upset over anything. It pains me when I know that I've hurt her. whether its a little issue or something bigger I HATE to make her unhappy. I love her so much more than I knew I was capable of loving any person.
I need to really focus on God and then Janine, in my life. I feel so far away from God some times. If I were half of who I wish I could be I would have a consistent daily prayer time and all would go well in my relationship with Janine. Some how God still loves me even when I fall short of loving Him and his people. And for some crazy reason so dose Janine. I could not ask for more than that.
Long distance relationships only get harder over time, The closer you get to some one the more you want to be with them. I wish I could have a regular relationship, but I wouldn't trade mine with Janine for a closer one with any one else in the world. Some times I don't know if she believes that, but I mean every word of it. Since there is no perfection in the world I need to thank God for what I have. Thank Him for love at all even in my imperfection.

"Consider is pure joy my brothers when you face trials of man kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance."

So I should really be full of joy in spite of trial. What would life be with no trial though. Thank you God for love even the rough parts of it.

Lost in Manila

I never thought that a city whose name, so makes me think of ice-cream, could ever be so scary. I started out early for a walk in Manila with the lovely miss Janine Carreon. The idea was just to go for a walk for half an hour or so. How ever we didn't in our wildest dreams foresee the long perils journey on with we were about to embark.
So we're walking down the road and I was explaining about how the right exhaust on a motor can make or break its performance. We can continue this conversation until Janine said we had been walking for a while and she wanted to turn around and go back to the house now. I said ok but lets walk around the block and go back that way. She agreed with me and we continued our walk "around the block". we turned a couple of corners until we thought to ourselves this is not a block at all. We were however headed in the direction, or so we thought. We walked and walked. It seemed like we had been walking for ever.
We knew we were lost but didn't know what to do, as we had not brought a cell phone on our little exhibition nor did we bring and money with witch to get a cab. You know it seems like sometimes I through all my reasoning skills out the window. So any way we end up walking through some pretty shady neighborhoods and down dark creepy streets to finally make it to the middle of the city.
By this time Janine is pissed and I'm tired and she's tired and her feet hurt and the whole thing is all just going down right CRAPPY! Not the best day we've ever had.
So by now I'm at a total loss as what to do. We sit down on the stairs in front of a high rise condo building to let Janine's and my feet rest for a while. After a few minutes I walked inside to ask the security guard if they had a phone and a phone book we could use. He just told me the shopping center inside the building was closed until 10:00 am. This was not helpful. So the last option I had was to pray and pray and pray that God would give us a Jeepnie driver who knew there the SIL center was and that would give us a ride for free.
So I walked out into the busy main drag in Manila to see if I could maybe get a driver that could even understand me and know where we needed to go. after about 3 different drivers 1 of them said he knew where we needed to go and he would take us free of charge.
I was so happy I couldn't believe it. So we drive a couple of KM and he said here it is, and we said no its not. it turned out he didn't know where we needed to go at all the thought we had said something different.
We go out and once again were on our own feet. I flagged a cab driver and asked him if he know the place where the SIL center was, and explained that we were all out of cash and could not pay him Right now but if he could get us were we were going we could pay him then. He agreed to help us. So we drove and drove all around town until we were in the right part of town. Once we were in the right part of town we could find the right street. we drove in circles for at least 30 minutes. Janine eventually suggested that we should stop at an Internet cafe and see if her dad might be on Facebook. The drive knew just were one was. He took us, we pulled up in the parking lot and of course we were all out of money. The driver knowing this gave us money in order to pay to use the Internet. So we went in and looked for Joey Carreon on Facebook and as our luck would have it he wasn't there. So we sent a message any way to see if he might reply. Then Janine had the great idea, well lets look on Skyp; he said he's always on there. So we looked and again no luck, but just for kicks and giggles Janine sent him a chat message any way. She thought he might just be invisible. We waited for 1 or 2 minutes and POP, up came a message. An overwhelming feeling of relief filled us both. So we got the address and when we showed it to the taxi driver He knew right were it was. After that we were back home again in about 5 minutes. Thank God for the angle taxi man. That was something not expected at all, but threw prayer, God gave us His grace and we were able to get back.
So needless to say We learned a very important lesson about going for walks in a city that we did not know. Take a cell phone, some money for a taxi just in case, and always always know the address of where you are staying.

Why do we waist our time on TV?

You know it's crazy how much time people waist watching TV. We all know that there is nothing on but we still turn it on just to reaffirm our preconceived notions. People spend more time looking at a screen inside so that they can watch someone else do something that they could be doing. Like sports for example, I don't get it. If you're such a die hard spots fan go out side and play for you self. It kills me how people sit there and yell at a TV when someone messes up, as if they can hear you.
One other thing that really get me is how many remotes people have to use in order to use one system. It takes like 5 remotes to use the DVD player it seams a bit ironic if you ask me. I mean I thought the remote was to make things easier, not to confuse people to death. And why do we need HD and 1080P and stupid stuff like that? Really it kills the whole movie watching experience, you can see right threw all the Hollywood magic; it's just no fun that way. I know I speak crazy talk, to not care about TV and what they're doing in the next episode of The Hills or Nip Tuck, but I've never said that I was sane.

D.U.N. dun with American culture

I get so sick of how people think if you do something you need a label or if or if you call yourself a Christian, you look a certain way and have a certain political view. I've had all I can take of political and cultural Christianity. I hate stereotypes. I am into motorcycle riding and cooking. Stereotype that.

I don't have a favourite food or a favourite place because I haven't tried all the foods or been to everywhere in the world. From now on I'm finished conforming to "Christian" or "political" culture.
I no longer want to be a "Christian" by standards of the world or of American Culture. I want to be a follower of Christ be the standards of the Bible.

This has next to nothing to do with food but this is a much bigger issue than food. Food is a great thing and a gift from God but is sadly irrelevant too to the subject at hand.

I live not for food, not for school, not for Janine though I love her very much, and not for family, but for God, and to spread his love to the world. Though all the things I listed are good things, they are all worthless when placed next to God.

My life since school has been an on going battle. My attention is spread thin between school friends, Janine, and God. Sadly I give school most of my time, friends most of what's left, and push the 2 people I care for most, Janine and God to the side and give them only what's left. For this I am sorry. God blesses my day after day and I only give him leftovers in return.

As I said before I'm finished looking like other Christians and fitting their stereotypes. No longer will I be Christian by culture. I will look different from other Christians, so as not to be confused with those who fallow the culture, and to the best of my ability I'll act the way that Christ would.

Thank God for food

Do you ever get a craving for a food and it just won't go away? Some times I get the bigest craving for sushi.

Man I'll ever forget the first time I eat sushi. I was on a plane headed to Papua New Guinea from Singapore. The flight attendant woke me up and set a small little plastic plate like sectioned container, and a cup of instant noodles on my flip down tray-table. I looked at it and saw and thought to my self.

"This is weird food, but I'm hungry."

I knew exactly what the noodles were. The sectional plate however seemed to have a few slices of raw salmon and some sticky rice. I had some idea what it was but the idea of sushi was still so odd, and kinda gross to an 11 year old boy. Me being who I am though just had to try it.

At first I was like, yeah its kinda gross but something inside compeled me to continue to eat it. By the time I was finished with it I felt so accomplished that I wanted more of it. This of course was not a possibility at the time but ever since then I can't get enough sushi. Man good stuff that.

I really believe that opening my mind to different food really helped me to open my mind to other cultures and people that might otherwise seem strange and or undesirable. Thank God for food.

Just think if it weren't for that time eating sushi on the plane to PNG I might have never cared to meet different people. If it weren't for sushi and I might never have met Janine, my lovely Philippina girl friend. What fun would life be if I never met her?

Hi my name is Nathan Freeze.

In My life I've been all over the world. When I was 11 years old my family and I moved to Papua New Guinea where we were missionaries for several years. In between there and here I was able to see all over Asia and was instantly inspired to try and to cook all kinds of food. I've eaten everything I could get my hands or should I say mouth on, from sushi to grub worms.

I am not a Chef nor do I have any kinda of formal culinary training. I just love to cook. There are very few things I love more than cooking. Than would be God, my girl friend Janine, my other family and friends and motorcycles, in that order. sometimes though I just have to cook something.

One of my most favourite things to eat is HOT WINGS. Were I to make hot wings right now I'd start by cuting about 10 or 15 wings. I'd cut the "leglet" from the rest of the wing. I would then proceed to drying the winds of with a paper towel (this makes them crisp when cooked), after drying the wings spread then out on a cooling rack, on a cookie sheet. After all of that, I'd place the seemingly precarious assembly of pans and such in the oven, witch should be set to 400 degrees feren-hight and only bake until crispy, 15 minutes. I try not to over cook the wings. Nobody likes dry wings.

When the wings come out of the oven I let them cool for a few minutes before handling them (they will be hot). After they cool I'd take about a cup and a half of rice-flour in a bowl mix in 1.5 tsp, salt .5 tsp cayenne pepper, and just a pinch of paprika for color. I'd then Dip each wing piece in the flour mixture and drop them into hot peanut oil, and let them cook just until golden brown.

Now for the fun part THE SAUCE. Everyone knows that Hot Wings sauce is best when made with you know that one sauce with the guy with the lasso from Texas, I can't for the life of me think of the trade marked name of it but you know what I mean. Any way you need that stuff, about half a cup of it and just about 1 Tbl spoon of garlic powder, a third of a stick of butter, and just a little squeeze of lemon juice not much about a half a tsp. This mixture needs microwaving just for the butter in the mix to melt. when this is finished melting drop the wings into the bowl of saucy goodness cover the wings from tip to tip with the hot wing sauce. When all that hard work was stick a fork in it done, I eat every last one of those wings.